Review 7: Mini Pelamin & Bilik Pengantin

Kali ni nak review pasal mini pelamin/pelamin nikah.

I want something simple. Suci...romantik..gitu. and paling penting dangling flowers n crystal

So I sent some pics to my awesome bridal - Rafie.

This is the output. Cantikkan? For me at least. hahaha. Ok.. saya mengimpikan masa nikah i sit there dikelilingi dayang2 aka bridesmaid kat bawah and mama n my sister duduk sebelah.

tetapi...

penat je upah pelamin cantik2 hahahaa.

ok. masa tu maybe salah saya gak la coz siap mekap lambat. mekap x sampai 30min u volsssss. haaaa. hahaa. dah x nervous nak nikah dah masa tu. just nervous siap ke tak mekap tu.

bila2 keluar tu...imam suruh duduk sebelah my hubby. haaa??

masa tu hanyalah REDHA hahaha

bila ingat2 balik sangat kelakar ye rasanya.

n my bridesmaid "stuck" kat pelamin tu. makanya saya sorang saja di situ. hoho

ok..next pasal bilik pengantin

tirai and bunga2 tu from Rafie.

My inspiration utk bilik ni ikut kepala sendiri.

I want simple, romantic n ala2 english

puas carik side table yang berkenan. Akhirnya jumpa yang berkenan di Romantika Angsana.

Then lampu meja n orchid from there too.

cadar n comforter tu i recycle balik dari masa tunang. sebab puas carik set cadar pengantin, takde yang berkenan di hati, semua berkilat2, berlabuci..mahal sangat pulak tu.

i bought masa sale kat Parkson.

katil tu katil lama..i asked my dad to paint it white.

owh...karpet tu from jakel n ada chandelier sgt cantik hehe..

shopping barang dlm bilik ni n setup sume was done 2 days before event. haha.

totally i am satisfied with my pelamin n bilik pengantin. simple n memorable :)

anyway siapa2 yang berminat nak hire my wedding bridal:

Contact him for quotation

Rafie Mahmood 0123035363
FB: Search Prettyphannatiq Weddings & Events
Or u can visit his bridal studio at:
M-Suites Hotel,
Straits View, Jln Skudai,
Johor Bahru

My Awesome Bridesmaid

Tak lengkaplah majlis perkahwinan tanpa bridesmaid kan? Bridesmaid ni typically kawan2 rapat kita.

To be honest, dlm banyak2 preparation, pasal bridesmaid la i plan paling first hehe.

so my beautiful gorjes brides ni terbahagi kepada 2

satu group untuk reception

satu untuk nikah

ni antara gambar2 bridesmaid masa reception.

untuk reception i beli 5 dress. i reli love the dress. tak ingat dah beli kat mana. its online.

so my dear bridesmaid ni sangat bekerja keras ye masa reception.

drama sangat before reception. berarak at 1.30 and at 1pm MUA baru sampai.

Can u believe it? haha

so diorang ni laaa yang menenangkan hati buat lawak bodoh dalam bilik.

Diorang la berkejar2 iron baju sebab baru perasan kedut2 sikit sebab simpan dalam almari.

haha.

sungguh kelakar.

ohhhh n those veil! yang meleret2 hahaa.

syuhada is my besfren from darjah 4. Dia n one more fren, shidah slept at my place after nikah. Cant think i can do this without them. Dialah yang tolong macam2 after nikah, setup dewan dengan pengantin tengah2 malam n setup dewan lagi pagi2 tu. Will never forget your jasa my bff!!

Ok move  to part nikah. Untuk nikah ni ramai sikit bridesmaid. sebab konon2 sorang untuk satu dulang.

i just bought the fabric and the shawl and ask them to tempah sendiri.

bridesmaid ikut instruction duduk keliling pelamin. malangnya tak duduk pun kat pelamin masa nikah. ceh! membazir! hhaha, sebab imam suruh duduk sebelah2. senang gamaknya.

jadinya i duduklah sorang2 di keliling lelaki2 tanpa sorang pun bridesmaid! haha. i've been thinking sepanjang nikah nak pegang tangan someone. takpelah :P

ni plak dulang guys

owh...this is minah kepoh haha. my fav cousin! dia dari kecik memang adore me hahaha. muka pun sebijik mcm i masa kecik. sepanjang2 prep kawen, nikah, sanding dia selalu melekat. dengan mulut mcm makcik komen itu ini hahaha. i miss her so much!!

owh my other bff..tirah. dia memang tulang belakang la! teringat dari dulu selalu berangan pasal inspiration kawen with her. she came one day b4 my big day. so memang dia tolong sangat banyaaaakkkk mende! She is heaven sent! tq sgt sgt dear for everything...the bachelorette party..the video! the help...semua la!

owhhhh xlupa jugak bridesmaid lain yg sangat byk tolong masa wedding..tolong setup video, bagi2 doorgift, cakes, ada jadi emcee, jadi floor manager, usher, singer mcm2 lah! cannot do anything without them

cantik kan? hehee.

i miss my girls!

Life

Siapa sangka...

In the last 2 month 12 days...i am married, start new life, new house, was pregnant, miscarriage n first time experience operation :)

Alhamdulillah for all the experiences.

"Sesungguhnya ketika Allah mendatangkan ujian kepada hambaNya, Allah sedang memandangnya"

Review 6: Kek Kahwin

Baru keluar ward hari ni. I feel good. Alhamdulillah :)

Cantik kan? haha puji kek sendiri. Tapi seriously i love this cake from tak lain tak bukan kak leen from loyang kuih :)

http://www.loyangkuih.com/

Go to her blog to see her awesome creation!

TQ Kak leen for realizing my dream. i love my cake to bits. heee.

i also ordered cupcakes, hantaran cakes for both sides, rv in jar with her.

Pengalaman Miscarriage 2

..sambungan dari entry lepas

Jumaat tu kami dtg ke Annur lagi. We were so so nervous. Sangat. Terlalu. Then doc tunjuk keputusan darah...dari 16800 to 16200 something like that..so HCG dah jatuh.. memang negative. Then doc scan lagi..
Just to double confirm..

Kantung masih ada lagi..tapi kosong. Masa tu sangat bertahan. Muka hubby berubah. Doc khamsiah sangat professional. Cara explain n bagitawu bad news. I dah sangat bersedia for this. Tapi cuba tersenyum dan menahan air mata. Doc Kham bagi option utk bincang dulu dengan family. But I want to move on fast. Terus tanya dia mcm mana prosedur if nak buat di sini.

So kami book her time. Sebab if tunggu keluar dengan sendiri, it takes time n kemungkinan ada lagi yang tertinggal kat rahim. I know for sure i nak my rahim to be clean n healthy. I nak conceive lagi.

So we book our appointment dgn Dr. Kham hari rabu. Ada yang cakap sakit..etc.. Tak kisahlah. haha. I think my pain tolerance tinggi (amin amin..)

Kami terus makan our late lunch. I want something "fancy" to "celebrate" my 2 month pregnancy.
Sambil2 tu kami bincang apa learning yg kami dpt from this...
We realized that I worked too hard..on friday tu i work n i cooked twice. Kemas2 sume sebab my sis is coming. Not that my hubby isnt helping tp masa tu dia ada match n I ni degil.
Then..batuk yang sangat teruk. I refused to take meds sebab xnak baby affected. tapi kesan dia selalu sakit perut sebab batuk..
I still wear my heels.. hmmm
I work mcm biasa..business lagi. doing candy buffet plus work is tiring

IT WAS PERFECTLYLY OK WHEN I WAS NOT PREGNANT. sebab i did more that that when i was not preggy. People who close with me knows what type of women i am. Tapi maybe i was not strong enough like how I used to be. I thought i was strong but im not. I just do harm to my baby..urgh..

I was ok that time..after receiving the news. Even we laughed on something...then masa on the way back.. baru lah menangis.. tak tahan sebab teringatkan all the sweet moments when im pregnant

Masa balik we watch movie..then i cried ms makan.. sebab tgk movie yg ada pasal anak2.. sambil ckp
"I want baby.."

Got heavy cramp that nite i couldn't sleep..maybe sbb stop makan pil hormon so rahim try nak keluarkan.
besok pagi2 i feel something is about to keluar from down there. Cepat2 gi toilet n cangkung..it was a mess. blood everywhere..banyak ketulan darah mcm hati ayam n ada satu tu i confident itu janin. i can see bentuk mcm kepala badan n ekor n ada putih transparent mcm tali pusat. sgt kecik.. kejutkan hubby utk tengok n uruskan.. so i guess im officially gugur..

Pengalaman ni sangat2 berharga..kehadiran "baby" inside me makes me closer to Allah. Closer to my hubby n make me love myself more. I know maybe ppl ckp whats a big deal of it? Tapi instinct ibu tu.. I feel empty..dulu i used to self talk.. ckp dlm hati n know ada "org" yg mendengar. I really really miss him.
Im not sad of this event..just sometimes i miss him.

Last nite i cried again. Tiba2 rasa rindu sangat2..sebab ternampak "Diari Hamil" dan catatan pasal our experience. I really miss him. Hubby pujuk sangat2..n makes me more emotional sbb hubby sangat2 kuat..sangat2 sabar.. Ya Allah..Kau rahmatilah suamiku. Dialah suami terhebat..

When I told him "I kesian kat u susah2 jaga i pantang..padahal takde baby"
Akhirnya air mata hubby jatuh jugak..dia tak pernah nangis..

TQ for everyone yg bagi kata2 semangat. Even i know few of my closest fren cried when receive this news. Yurp saya sangat kuat. Banyak plan ahead (Allah's plan is the greatest). But im a normal human being. Sometimes im sad.. i miss him.. i miss being strong..can do a lot of things..not just lying on bed..i feel extremely ok tp i have to berpantang. I do this for my hubby n my next baby.

InsyaAllah we learnt so many things from this event. I never regret of carrying this for 2 months. Never. n I'm not sad...just i miss him so so much.. Every moment was a blessing for us alhamdulillah :)

Pengalaman Miscarriage 1

Hi semua..
Review kahwin terhenti sebentar.
I feel I need to write this. Sebab its one of my important event in life too.
An event that changed my perspective of me..and world and everything.

It started on Friday, 11th Jan. Tiba2 bleeding. Terus cuak. Menangis gila2. Bleeding fresh blood. Call semua org xdpt. My hubby tgh main hoki..my mom n dad ntah ke mane ntah.

Cuak tak tawu nak buat apa. Whatsapp my reference, Nisah. Sambil baring sambil google. Kebanyakan memang cakap its an early sign of miscarriage. Tapi ada jugak implamantation blood. I was hoping for the latter ones.

Actually dah mimpi buruk berturut2 few days before bleeding. Memang mimpi yang sama. Bleeding. Menangis2 dan tak tahu buat apa. Bangun pagi2 menangis peluk hubby.

Terus ke hospital pakar annur. Doc scan. Janin was ok. I was quite happy sebab ada progress from my last scan. I was happy and worried at the same time. She referred me to see pakar the next day. Dia bagi duphaston utk kuatkan rahim.

The next day...both of us bangun lambat. Too many things happened last night. Pukul 11 baru pegi jumpa doc...then pick up my sis kat KLIA. So both of us sangat penat. Turned out Annur O&G full and x terima my case even ada referral letter. serius i was so sad. so so sad. Then call lagi hospital lain end up semua pun full. OK. Masa ni i lose myself and menangis gila2 n marah2 my hubby. Kesian dia :(

At last dapat jugak appointment dengan O&G kat KPMC. Dengan Dr. Mimi. She scanned...and I was very happy sebab nampak denyutan jantung baby. Kelap kelip dalam tu. Feel like crying again. It was a good news...tapi bleeding doesn't stop.

Doc pesan jangan buat kerja berat2 n bagi ubat batuk coz i batuk quite bad. So maybe its one of the cause jugak.

Then the next day I continue kerja. I got 2 days workshop kat Le Meridien n i have to present. So i thought I cannot miss this. One thing about me..i will feel very energetic n lupa semua when at work. I was so happy and tak rasa sakit pun. The bleeding still continue...mcm org period tu.

Isnin tu..i dont know.. i feel very sad. I feel something bad is going to happen. Masa hubby tgh tido i was talking to my baby...ntah...its like saying goodbye jugak n ask him to fight for us. Sampai harini i really feel to la last time his heartbeat...

Selasa..we went to Annur O&G to see Dr. Khamsiah. Dia scan.. it was not a good news. Janin memang ada but we cant see the heartbeat. I know dia dah tak ada. I feel empty. But she was very supportive. Maybe sebab masih kecik. So Dr. Kham ask for blood test utk compare HCG. If in 2 days HCG tak naik or makin turun..its confirmed miscarriage...

Penantian dari hari Selasa ke Jumaat tu sangat lama. I know dia dah xde but we keep praying. We hope for miracle to happen. Every night hubby bagi kaunseling...kami sama2 prepare ourself for any news..whether its bad or good..its going to be the best for us.

To be continued...

It's a Loss

Yes... miscarriage..


Tak sempat nak update blog ni bila dapat tawu i am pregnant.
Alhamdulillah..about 2 months I carry my lil precious. Sepanjang pregnancy adalah masa yang sangat bernilai. Kandungan ini telah mendekatkan kami berdua kepada Allah. We focus more on our future.
Setiap malam hubby akan recite surah2 mujarab ketika mengandung. Kadang2 (most of the times actually) i already asleep.
Perhatian dan perasaan "berkat" ketika mengandung sangat sukar digambarkan.

Setiap hari berdoa baby sihat.
Dah sedar kehadiran our baby 2 days before my period is due. Terus2 beli supplemen.
We were so excited n careful as well.
As first time parents, persediaan tu memang penting. Kami beli buku..download pelbagai apps, did a lot of research..

Hubby siap beli whiteboard catatkan rutin pregnancy.

Pregnancy ni bukanlah tiba2..kami memang plan sebelum berkahwin lagi. alhamdulillah Allah bagi rezeki tu cepat, kami tak sangka! sebab tu banyak planned vacation in january. cherating, cameron highlands, boracay. tapi rancangan Allah lagi cantik... keguguran masa january.
panjang cuti kali ni...

banyak hikmah...

mungkin ada dosa yang bertimbun. Ujian ni dirasakan sangat relevan. Sebab banyak sangat rahmat dari Allah..
mungkin kami tidak bersedia...walau kami memang mengharap..tapi bila fikir balik mungkin kami tak bersedia. baru je habis majlis...rumah pun masih sewa..financial n physical x kuat lagi
mungkin Allah bagi mengejar impian dan menabur budi dahulu
mungkin Allah bagi lebih masa lebih mengenali suami dan berjalan2 dulu
mungkin kandungan tak sihat
mungkin sepanjang "percutian" ni lebih refleksi diri..dapat rehat. been too busy n neva hv time to reflect...
actually, im quite positive about this, but yes..naluri ibu. menangis berhari2 juga. i am so lucky to have such a wonderful hubby.
nanti insyaallah akan buat post tentang moment2 tentang keguguran. mungkin dapat jadi panduan :)
apapun, saya mengharap doa semua untuk dikuatkan kami berdua menempuh ujian ini. dan semoga next time insyaAllah akan ada rezeki lagi :D

Review 5: Solemnization Dress

Heloooo ok now its time to review my solemnization dress. I wanted a dress yang simple.. no veil. patch lace je n we decided not to wear white. 

untuk this important event, I chose Jezmine Zaidan from Old Blossom Box. I know her since 2007. Been a loyal customer until now. hehe. 

Sangat senang dengan jezmine. bagitawu je nak apa then dia lukis there n then. Baju ni ditempah x sampai 2 bulan before majlis pun. 

I told her that I want peplum yang labuh dgn one side je lace kat bawah bust n ada long veil kat belakang. nak kelainan sikit sebab masa tunang hari tu dah pakai veil kat kepala. 

Untuk tudung she made 2metre shawl n she made me lace yg dah siap beading sume just tinggal pin kan je.

i reli love this dress. simple n sweet je. ohhh n ada train sikit kat kain. 

 Harga dengan Jezmine sangat2 reasonable considering she is a very famous designer.
I was sooo hepi with dress sbb nmpak kurus yeee hahahaa.

TQ Jezmine for being a great dress maker for my most important event in life n being a good fren also! hehe.

For those yang berminat nak buat baju kahwin dgn dia, sadly dia open order only in April sbb banyak sgt tempahan. You can go to her boutique at Seksyen 7 or Seksyen 13 Shah Alam.

All her collections are to die for :)